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WHEN YOU LOOK INTO HER EYES,

IT'S LIKE LOOKING INTO HER SOUL,

YOU CAN SEE EVERY TEAR SHED,

YOU CAN HEAR EVERY SCREAM YELLED,

YOU CAN FEEL HER HEARTBREAK,

AND YOU CAN HEAR IT SHATTER,

WHEN HE SAID THAT HE NEVER LOVED HER.

WHEN I SEE THE TREES FALLING,

WATER DRYING,

BIRDS DYING,

ANIMALS SCREAMING,

I CAN'T HELP BUT SEE MOTHER NATURE CALLING,

CRYING,

FOR US TO SEE THAT SHE'S DYING.

IT BREAKS HIM,

IT KILLS HIM,

EVERY TIME HE SEES HIM WITH HER,

HIS HEART IS BREAKING,

BUT NO MATTER WHAT,

HE STILL BREATHES FOR HIM.

 

HE LOVES HIM,

TRUSTS HIM,

EVERY TIME HE HOLDS HIM,

HE FORGETS EVERYTHING,

EXCEPT HIS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE,

FOR HIM .

SOCIETY TELLS HIM TO DO SPORT,

TELLS HIM TO LIKE GIRLS ONLY.

SOCIETY TELLS HER TO LOVE FASHION,

TELLS HER TO BE THIN,

TELLS HER TO LIKE BOYS ONLY.

THEY LISTEN TO SOCIETY,

BUT I WISH THAT THEY COULD SEE THAT SHE NEVER CARED.

SHE NEVER WANTED THEM.

SOCIETY REPRESENTS THE ONES THAT ARE CLOSED MINDED.

SOCIETY KILLED THEM AS THEY UNDERSTOOD,

SHE NEVER WANTED THEM.

WE KILLED THEM,

AS WE NEVER TRIED TO UNDERSTAND THEM.

LOST IN DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS,

CRAVING FOR ATTENTION,

BEGGING FOR AFFECTION,

DYING FOR PROTECTION.

THEY NEED TO BE HEARD,

NEED TO BE HELPED,

TO BE SAVED.

THEY ARE AFRAID,

THEY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO TURN,

THEY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO RUN.

AND IT JUST BEGUN,

THEIR PAIN LOADED LIKE A GUN,

READY TO SHOOT ANYONE.

I CAN SEE WHY,

SHE'S BEAUTIFUL,

SHE'S FAITHFUL, GRACEFUL,

AND YOU'RE GRATEFUL.

AND WHEN I LOOK UP TO THE SKY,

I CAN'T HELP BUT CRY,

THINKING ABOUT YOU AND I,

AND I CAN'T DENY,

I SHOULD SAY GOODBYE.

BUT I CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO GIVE UP ON US, 

AND IT HURTS,

YOU THREW MY TRUST TO DUST,

YOU LEFT ME HERE TO BURST.

BUT I COULD HAVE SWORN,

THAT EVERY ROSES HAS ITS THORN.

LIFE IS HARD.

LIFE ISN'T FAIR.

YOU HAVE TO FIGHT FOR YOURSELF.

FIGHT FOR THE ONES WHO CAN'T.

FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU LOVE AND BELIEVE IN.

LIFE IS NOT FAIR, BUT YOU CAN BE.

SHE WILL THROW THINGS AT YOU,

AND THE BEST YOU CAN DO,

IS TO USE IT LATER AS A SHIELD,

TO PROTECT YOU.

SHE READS THIS BOOK LIKE HER LIFE DEPENDS ON IT.

SHE'S ATTACHED TO IT'S CHARACTERS AS IF SHE WAS A PART OF IT.

SHE WILL REMEMBER ITS IMPACT ON HER FOR THE REST OF HER DAYS.

SHE WILL CHERISH THE LIFE LESSONS SHE LEARNED.

UNTIL HER HAIR TURNS GRAY AND SHE CAN NO LONGER THINK STRAIGHT.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD WRITE ABOUT YOU.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD CRY FOR YOU.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HATE YOU.

BUT LOOK AT ME NOW.

I BOW HERE AND NOW.

ALLOW ME TO BE HAPPY WITH YOUR MEMORY,

WITH MEMORIES OF YOU AND ME.

WATCH ME PLEA,

FOR YOU TO STAY,

TO WAY, TO CELEBRATE OUR LOVE. 

BUT THIS MORNING I'M WAKING UP IN FRONT OF A MORNING DOVE,

AND FOUND A TREASURE TROVE,

AS IS YOUR LOVE FOR ME. 

HOW IT HAS BEEN ALL ALONG. 

NEVER WRONG,

BEAUTIFUL AND STRONG.

LOST AND FOUND,

CAN YOU HEAR THIS SOUND?

IT'S COMING FROM THE GROUND. 

DON'T LOOK AROUND,

YOU'RE UNOWNED. 

YOU ARE THE ONE WHO WEARS THE CROWN.

I'VE LOVED AND LOST MORE THAN I CAN COUNT. 

BUT YOUR DEATH TOUCHED ME MORE THAN I CAN ADMIT. 

I TRIED TO FIND AN EXIT TO THIS UNSTOPPABLE PAIN  

BUT THIS POURING RAIN MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M FIGHTING IN VAIN. 

OH, GOD. I WISH I COULD PUT AWAY THIS HOLE INSIDE ME. 

BUT IT KEEPS GROWING LIKE THE SUN KEEPS BURNING,

I THINK I'M DYING.

ALL ABOUT DEDICATION,

AND PASSION.

WRITING IS A THERAPY FOR THE BRAIN AND THE IMAGINATION.

A SWEET ESCAPE TO ANOTHER LANDSCAPE.

OH, WHEN I LOOK AT THIS SKY,

I CAN'T HELP BUT CRY AND SMILE.

I THANK GOD EVERY DAY FOR GIVING ME THE OPPORTUNITY

TO STARE AT THIS SKY EVERY SINGLE NIGHT,

AND DREAM ABOUT ANOTHER LIFE OF MINE.

OH, THANK GOD FOR CREATING MOTHER NATURE.

FOR ALLOWING HER TO BLESS US WITH COLORS SO PURE  

HER PROMISE TO GIVE US A UNIQUE SPECTACLE TO LOOK AT EVERY DAY,

IS A BLESSING BEYOND YOU AND ME. 

I'M SO THANKFUL FOR THIS CHANCE THAT YOU GAVE ME,

WHETHER IT RAINS, SNOWS OR SHINES,

I WON'T EVER MIND. 

MESMERIZED BY YOUR POWER,

AND HOW KIND YOU ARE TO THE HUMANKIND.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE DESTROY AND HURT YOU,

JUST KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE THANKFUL FOR YOU.

HERE'S TO THE ONES THAT BROKE ME,

TO THE ONES THAT SHATTERED ME. 

THAT KILLED AND DESTROYED ME.

BUT HERE'S TO ME FOR BEING MY OWN BIGGEST ENEMY.

LIFE IS FULL OF HIGHS AND LOWS,

TODAY'S LOW WILL NEVER DEFINE TOMORROW'S HIGH.

ALLOW YOURSELF TO CRY,

BUT ALSO TO FLY.

I'VE BEEN IN STATES OF MIND WHERE I DIDN'T KNOW IF I FELT GOOD OR NOT.

I'VE ALWAYS BEEN LIVING MY LIFE LIKE A BOOK OR A TV SHOW.

WAITING TO DISCOVER THE FINAL PLOT, WAITING HERE,

FROZEN IN THE SAME OLD SPOT,

BUT I WASN'T CLOSE TO WHAT I THOUGHT,

NOT BY A LONG SHOT, I WAS FAR FROM IT.

NOW MY EYES ARE OPEN,

I'M STRONGER THAN I THOUGHT,

I KNOW WHAT I'VE GOT,

IT'S NOT THE END OF MY LIFE.

IT'S JUST THE PILOT.

IT'S UP TO ME TO WRITE THE PLOT,

AND WHEN TO PUT THE FINAL DOT.

I WANT TO KEEP WALKING AHEAD,

I WANT TO MISS THE TURN,

I WANT TO FEEL LIBERATED.

WHAT IF THE ONLY WAY FOR ME TO FEEL LIKE THIS,

IS IF I WALK AWAY?

IF I NEVER COME BACK?

NO MATTER HOW MUCH THE SKY IS BLACK.

I KNOW DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART,

I WILL KEEP DREAMING OF NEVER TURNING BACK.

ONE DAY I WILL MISS THE TURN AND FEEL LIBERATED.

THE PAIN THE HURT MIGHT HAVE BEEN A COMFORT AND FUN FOR A WHILE,

BUT IT'S TIME FOR ME TO ALLOW MYSELF TO SMILE AND FLY.

OH, DARLING, BUT I ONLY BELONG TO MYSELF.

DON'T YOU SEE IT? I WAS NEVER TRULY YOURS.

DON'T FOOL YOURSELF AND THINK I AM AN OBJECT THAT CAN BE OWNED.

I'M A FREE SPIRIT LIVING ON ITS OWN.

BE STILL YOUR HEART,

YOU ARE WITNESSING THE BEGINNING OF ME.

THE HURRICANE IN HER EYES,

TOOK HIM BY SURPRISE.

THE SUNRISE IN HIS EYES,

WAS HER PARADISE.

IF YOU CATCH HER EYES,

YOU CAN GET A GLIMPSE OF A PAST SUNRISE.

BUT NOW IT'S ALL GONE.

AND IT FEELS SO WRONG,

WHEN ALL YOU CAN SEE,

IS THE FIGHT SHE LEADS THROUGH THE NIGHT, 

PRAYING IT WILL BE ALL RIGHT.

I LOVE AUTUMN,

AND WATCH THE LEAVES FALL.

LIKE I COULD LOSE NOTHING AT ALL.

IT'S FINALLY NO LONGER SUMMER.

EVERYTHING SEEMS BETTER,

FEELS SWEETER, STRONGER.

FILL YOUR PAPER WITH THE BREATHINGS OF YOUR HEART.

HANG IT UP AS ART.

AND THEN RESTART.

TURN IT INTO ABSTRACT ART.

COME APART, FALL APART.

LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND REALIZE,

DARLING,

YOU'RE A WORK OF ART.

I'M A COWARD, 

I ONLY CARE ABOUT POWER.

THE ONLY PERSON THAT MATTERS IS ME.

AND MAYBE THE OTHERS LATER.

I BELIEVE IN DOING EVERYTHING IT TAKES TO GET WHAT YOU WANT,

NO MATTER THE MISTAKES.

WHAT'S WRONG?

THAT'S ME, STANDING TALL AND STRONG.

YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME, THAT I DON'T BELONG?

IT'S TRUE, THIS HUE ISN'T ME.

I'M NOT LIKE THIS.

THE TRUE ME IS HIDING IN DARK ABYSS,

WAITING TO COME OUT AND HOLD A HELPING HAND OUT FOR SOMEONE WHO NEEDS IT.

I MUST ADMIT, IT WOULD BE EASIER TO BE THE PERSON I WROTE.

BUT MY SHOULDERS AREN'T STRONG ENOUGH, TO WEAR THIS DARK COAT OF SELFISHNESS AND HATRED.

MY HEART IS SOMETHING SACRED.

IT'S SOMETIMES NEGLECTED AND COMPLICATED.

BUT THE LOVE THAT IT HOLDS, I KNOW IT,

IT'S HIGHLY AWAITED.

AND I WILL KEEP IT PURE.

EVEN IF IT GETS MANIPULATED, AND ENDS UP MUTILATED.

I STOPPED GOING HOME,

NOW I ROAM.

I'M A QUEEN WITHOUT HER THRONE,

AND A BROKEN CROWN.

UNTIL I REALIZE THAT I AM NOT ALONE.

I HAVE A KINGDOM.

AND WHEN I LOOK AT IT, I KNOW I CAN MAKE IT ON MY OWN.

BEHOLD, THE QUEEN RETURNS TO HER KINGDOM,

THE UNIVERSE.

DO NOT CRY AND WEEP

FOR I AM FINALLY AT PEACE.

YOU WILL FEEL BETTER,

PIECE BY PIECE.

ME BEING GONE, SHOULDN'T STOP YOU TO LIVE ON.

DO NOT FEE GUILTY TO MOVE ON,

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG.

ALL THAT I AM ASKING IS FOR YOU TO KEEP MY MEMORY ALIVE.

LOOK AT THE SUNSET FROM OUTSIDE,

AND DON'T BE SURPRISED WHEN YOU REALIZE,

THAT IN YOUR HEART, SOUL, AND MIND,

I SURVIVED.

AND I'M HERE WITH YOU TONIGHT,

AND EVERY NIGHT.

HER BODY WAS MAPPED WITH SCARS OF HER PAS WARS.

IT'S A MAP TO BE YET EXPLORED,

BUT EVERYONE IGNORES HER WITHOUT REMORSE.

HERE IS WHERE SHE STORED HER SILENT TEARS,

LIKE POISONED SOUVENIRS.

AND IT APPEARS,

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT VOLUNTEERS,

EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS,

TO CARRY THE WEIGHT OF HER FEARS.

I'M CONFUSED.

BROKEN AND BRUISED.

BUT I KNOW THAT UNDERNEATH IT ALL,

LIES THE TRUTH.

I HAVE NO HEART,

I HAVE NO SOUL.

SO DON'T BE SUCH FOOLS.

I'M THE ONE WHO MAKES THE RULES.

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POEM II

I USED TO CUT, I WANTED TO GIVE UP.

ALL THIS PAIN, AND THE HURT.

LYING HERE, IN THE DIRT.

HIDING MY SCARS UNDER MY SHIRT.

BUT I WOKE UP, STOOD UP, I ROSE BACK UP.

I'M A SURVIVOR.

I CAN FINALLY SEE THE WOLRD IN COLOR.

AND WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR,

I NO LONGER SEE A MONSTER OR A STRANGER.

AND I REALIZE, I'M NO LONGER IN DANGER.

NO NEED TO SURRENDER.

IT'S FINALLY OVER, I'M STRONGER.

MY POEMS TELL MY STORY,

THEY ARE A PART OF ME.

THEY ARE AS LOUD AS THE CRY OF A BANSHEE.

I'M TORN BETWEEN THE DEVIL AND THE DEEP BLUE SEA.

I'M NO LONGER THE ONE I USED TO BE.

I NEED TO LET IT BE.

AFTER ALL, ONLY THE WORSE OF THINGS HAPPEN AT SEA.

THERE IS NO GUARANTEE.

WHAT WILL BE, WILL BE.

FIRE IN MY SOUL,

ICE IN MY HEART.

HANDS FULL OF GOLD.

I'M NO FOOL, I KNOW THE RULES.

I'M THE QUEEN OF MY OWN DESTINY.

STRONGER THAN IT SEEMS.

I'LL THRIVE AND SOAR,

HIGHER THAN A BURNING FIRE.

HOW CAN YOU END UP TO BE SOMETHING I MISS?

HOW CAN YOUR NAME END UP LIKE A BRUISE ON MY LIPS?

I NEVER THOUGHT IT'D TURN OUT LIKE THIS.

I KEEP RELIVING OUR LAST KISS.

THE WAY YOUR EYES REMINDED ME OF AN OCEANIC ABYSS.

EVEN IN OUR PAST CRISIS,

I NEVER THOUGHT WE'D END LIKE,

THIS...

THEY SAY IT'S JUST IN MY MIND,

I'M DEALING WITH CHRONIC DEPRESSION,

AND I DON'T KNOW WHY.

 I DIDN'T ASK TO BE BORN

BUT NOW I HAVE TO PAY EVERY SINGLE DAY.

FIGHTING FROM MORNING TO EVENING

AGAINST A MENTAL ILLNESS I'M NOT EVEN CONTROLLING.

I USED TO WAIT FOR MY DEMONS TO COME.

I THOUGHT THEY COULD TEACH ME A LESSON.

IT WAS TO RUN.

NO MATTER THE DIRECTIONS OR THE QUESTIONS.

"RUN. JUST RUN."

HUSH HUSH, BABY, DON'T CRY.

EVERY LITTLE THING IS GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT.

AND WHEN YOUR WORLD COMES TUMBLING DOWN,

TAKE A LOOK AROUND.

AND YOU WILL FIND ME HOLDING THE KEY,

TO OPEN THE DOOR,

TO FOREVERMORE. 

FROM DRUGS TO ALCOHOL,

I WAS LOSING CONTROL.

CHANGED WATER INTO VODKA,

AT NINE IN THE MORNING I WAS PASSED A SIMPLE CLUB SODA.

I WAS BECOMING A BETTER LIAR.

AND WHEN I TRIED TO STAY SOBER,

I WAS CAGED BIRD, I WAS ON FIRE.

 I WAS A TIGER, I BECAME BITTER.

THE SHAKES AND COLD SWEATS ARE THE WORSE.

IT FEELS LIKE A CURSE.

MY LIFE AT THIS POINT IS AS PREDICTABLE AS TEH CLOCKWORK UNIVERSE.

I'M WALKING IN REVERSE,

LOSING MY VITAL FORCE.

BUT BY FITS AND STARTS,

I SAID,

"LET'S RESTART."

DO YOU LIKE TO WATCH ME BLEED?

WATCH ME FALL LIKE FLOWERS SEED?

I'M IN PAIN AND IN NEED.

CAN'T YOU SEE?

PLEASE HELP ME...

EVERY WORD,

EVERY RUMOR.

I BLINDLY LOOK AT THE PATH I'M WALKING TOWARDS.

I NO LONGER HAVE REMORSE.

I CRIED ENOUGH.

I HAVE NO TEARS LEFT.

MY WILL TO LIVE AND BREATHE HAS LEFT, TOO.

WHEN YOU LOOK INTO MY EYES, I'M NO LONGER THERE.

I'M PAST THE WILL TO DIE.

I'M ALREADY DEAD.

I'M JUST AN EMPTY SHELL.

THE SCREAMS YOU HEAR, AREN'T AS LOUD AS MY PAIN.

THE TEARS YOU SEE, ARE AS STRONG AS THE POURING RAIN.

I'M HURTING AND DYING.

I'M DONE BREATHING.

IF YOU'RE NOT HERE TO BREATHE FOR ME,

PLEASE GO AND LEAVE ME.

IT'S HARD TO SEE,

BUT THERE'S A LIGHT WAITING AND IT'S CALLING FOR ME.

HIS HANDS ON MY SKIN ARE SOMETHING

I WILL NEVER STOP SEEING OR FEELING.

EVEN DURING GOOD DAYS, THEY LINGER,

I FEEL HIS FINGERS.

IT'S HARD TO BREATHE.

WHEN HIS MEMORY FEELS LIKE HE'S STILL CHOCKING ME.

I KEEP ON LIVING,

EVEN IF EVERY TIME I'M REMEMBERING HIM,

I FEEL LIKE I'M ONCE AGAIN DYING.

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BONUS STANZA...

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EVEN IF HE LEFT HIS PERMANENT MARK,

I'M NOT GOING TO LOOK BACK.

I'M STRONGER THAN THAT.

I'M HAPPY AND HEALTHY,

HE CAN'T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME.

YOU MAY HAVE BROKEN ME, BUT I ROSE BACK UP.

NO MORE GIVING UP.

I'M STANDING AND SPEAKING UP.

MY PAST DOESN'T DEFINE WHO I AM.

NO MATTER WHICH MEDICAL EXAM,

OR HOW MANY PROGRAMS.

I AM MORE THAN MY MENTAL ILLNESS.

YOU SEE, IT'S ALL ABOUT THE STILLNESS.

I KNOW THAT I AM NOT WORTHLESS OR USELESS.

I'M JUST MYSELF.

AND IT'S THE BEST.

YOU LEFT YOUR KISSES LIKE BRUISES ON MY LIPS.

I FIND MYSELF RETRACING YOUR FINGERTIPS.

DARK EYES, BROWN SKIN, LET ME BREATHE YOU IN.

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME?

I CAN'T STOP OVERTHINKING YOUR EVERY WORD.

OR RELIVING THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME.

MY MIND IS BLURRED.

GOD, IT'S ABSURD.

I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'VE REACHED THIS POINT.

YOU ONLY SEE YOUR NEEDS.

IT'S THE ONLY TIME I FEEL WANTED, NEEDED.

IT'S THE ONLY TIME YOU SEE ME.

BUT YOU DON'T REALIZE, THAT NOW,

YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I SMILE AND BREATHE.

THIS CAN'T BE TRUE...

I CAN'T BE FALLING FOR YOU...

IT'S TIME TO OPEN MY EYES.

I WILL NOT SEE THIS SUNRISE.

I HAVE TO FIND ANOTHER ROAD.

I NEED TO MOVE FORWARD.

THINGS ARE GOING TO BE DIFFERENT, GOING TO CHANGE.

IT'S AN OPEN DOOR TO ANOTHER CHANCE.

I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO'S GOT THE KEY TO MY SERENITY.

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I WANTED TO BE THIN.

AS I'M GETTING OLDER I WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT,

AND HAVE THE CURVY BODY

THEY ALL SEEM TO LIKE.

IT'S NOT RIGHT.

I'M AS HEALTHY AS CAN BE,

I SHOULD BE HAPPY,

FEEL GOOD IN MY OWN BODY.

I NEED TO FOCUS ON ME

AND NOT THE LOOK OF THE OTHERS ON MY BODY.

I'M JUST ME,

AND I'M HAPPY.

AT THE END OF THE DAY

I'M ALONE WITH MYSELF,

MY REGRETS

MY DREAMS, MY FEARS,

MY DOUBTS, AND MY QUESTIONS.

AT THE END OF THE DAY

I FIND MYSELF ALONE

WITH MY DEMONS.

FIGHTING THEM ALL ALONE.

I HAVE THIS HOMESICK FEELING OF PLACE I'VE NEVER BEEN.

I'M CRAVING TO WALK DOWN THE STREETS AND DISCOVER ITS STORY.

THIS SHOULDN'T BE SO HARD,

MY HEART IS MISSING AND CALLING THIS CITY LIKE I'VE BEEN THERE BEFORE.

WHEN I LOOK AT THE SHORE,

I FIND MYSELF BACK THERE,

SMELLING THE FRESH AIR,

OF HOME AND SAFETY.

IF YOU AS ME,

I DON'T THINK IT'S FAIR.

FORGET WHAT WE'RE TOLD BEFORE WE GET TOO OLD.

THE END IS NEAR, IT'S RIGHT HERE.

THOUGHT THAT WE BELONG, I GUESS WE WERE WRONG.

THE WORLD IS GETTING COLD, AND I FEEL ALL ALONE.

I CAN'T STOP THE MEMORIES OF YOU AND ME.

OH, IT'S SO SAD.

I CAN'T STOP BEING MAD.

BUT I HAVE TO BE STRONG,

I HAVE TO MOVE ALONG AND KEEP GOING ON.

I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU,

I'LL ALWAYS BE IN LOVE WITH YOU,

EVEN IF I FINALLY LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU.

BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE BEFORE.

I HAVE FELT THE PAIN OF LOSING WHO YOU ARE.

AND I HAVE DIED SO MANY TIMES,

BUT I AM STILL ALIVE.

I HAVE KNOWN THE DARK,

I HAVE LIVED AND DIED IN IT.

I WAS REBORN THE MOMENT I DECIDED TO LET THE LIGHT IN.

NOW I AM STANDING,

AND I'M TELLING YOU,

THIS IS NOT YOUR FINISH LINE.

JUST LIKE IT WASN'T THE END OF MINE.

IN FACT, DARLING,

IT'S JUST THE BEGINNING.

PUT YOUR MAKE UP ON,

GET YOUR NAILS DONE,

GET YOUR SEXY ON.

THEY WILL LIKE YOU.

BUT WHAT ABOUT YOU?

KEEP YOUR BODY THIN,

KEEP IT SLIM.

DON'T BE SHY,

DON'T CRY.

THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT, TO BELONG.

THEN WHY DOES IT FEELS SO WRONG?

WILL THEY LIKE YOU?

BUT WHAT ABOUT YOU?

YOU GIVE IT ALL AWAY

YOU TRY AND TRY

YOU CRY AND CRY.

BUT THEY LIKE YOU.

AND WHAT ABOUT YOU?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO CHANGE A SINGLE THING.

YOU DO NOT HAVE TO CHOOSE.

STOP BENDING UNTIL YOU BREAK

THEY WON'T FIX YOU

THEY WILL HURT YOU

THEY DON'T LIKE YOU.

DO YOU LIKE YOU?

DON'T GIVE IT ALL UP

YOU JUST HAVE TO GET UP.

STOP TRYING TOO HARD

LOOK INTO THE MIRROR,

LOOK AT YOURSELF.

DO YOU LIKE WHAT YOU SEE.

STOP EVERYTHING, TAKE A DEEP BREATH.

THEY CAN'T LIKE YOU, THEY DON'T KNOW THE REAL YOU.

BUT I KNOW YOU AND I LOVE YOU.

WHAT ABOUT YOU?

DO YOU KNOW YOU?

DO YOU LOVE YOU?

SCARED AND PETRIFIED,

I'M NOT GOING TO DENY,

I CRIED, THOUGH NOT TO,

I TRIED.

BUT LOSING YOU IS THE BIGGEST FEAR MY HEART EVER KNEW.

OH, I'M PROUD OF YOU,

AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO.

SO MOST OF ALL,

THANK YOU.

YOU ARE MY TEACHER

MY BROTHER,

MY SAVIOR

AN EXTRAORDINARY MAN

YOUR SELFLESSNESS

IS MY SALVATION WHEN I'M HELPLESS

I WILL CHERISH AND HOLD ONTO THE TRACES OF YOU

CARRY YOUR WORDS IN MY HEART

LIKE A WORK OF ART

YOU GIVE YOUR ALL UNSELFISHLY

YOU'RE OH SO GOOD TO ME.

YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND

UNTIL THE END AS THEY ALL SAY.

YOU'RE MY RIDE OR DIE

YOU'RE MY PERSON

YOU ARE THE ONE

YOU MAKE ME SMILE WHEN I CRY

I DON'T HAVE TO TRY

 I WILL ALWAYS CHERISH YOU

SO THANK YOU

FOR BEING YOU

I WOULDN'T BE HERE WITHOUT YOU.

I'M PROTECTING MYSELF FROM YOU.

I MISS YOU.

TRUST ME, I DO.

THIS IS MY CUE TO MOVE ON FROM YOU,

AND EVERYTHING THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH.

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME,

BUT IT'S TIME FOR ME TO LET IT BE.

EVERY NIGHT I FEAR THOSE EMPTY SHEETS.

AND THE UNTOUCHED PILLOW

WHERE YOU USED TO SLEEP.

NOW IT ALL FEELS LIKE A DREAM.

OR A PERFECT NIGHTMARE.

A NOVEL I'D DEFINITELY READ.

A MOVIE I'D SEE.

THE STORY OF A BROKEN HEART

AND BROKEN LOVE.

AN UNFULFILLED DESTINY.

THE STORY OF YOU AND ME.

I'M CRYING, YES.

BUT I'M NOT DYING.

I'M SURVIVING.

UNTIL I'M FINALLY LIVING.

I KEEP DREAMING,

BELIEVING.

AND MOST OF ALL,

LOVING.

I'M GIVING UP.

I'M NOT STOPPING.

I'LL KEEP ON WALKING.

I'LL KEEP ON GOING.

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POEM III

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY ABOUT ME AFTER I'M GONE?

"GONE TOO SOON..."

"SO YOUNG, YOU HAD AMAZING THINGS TO LIVE THROUGH, STILL..."

"KIND HEART AND SOUL. REST IN PEACE."

"I'M GOING TO MISS YOU. AN ANGEL HAS PASSED AWAY TODAY."

AND I COULD GO ON.

ALL OF THAT SOUNDS SO WRONG.

I GUESS IT'S MAYBE MY FAULT.

I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO BE REMEMBERED BY.

AND IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE TO TRY.

I THINK I MIGHT BE CRAZY.

I WAS BETRAYED AND DISAPPOINTED.

I HAD MY HOPES CRUSHED DOWN.

EXPERIENCES THAT LEFT ME BREATHLESS.

I HAVE IN MY HEART, AN AWAITED EMPTY PLACE TO BE FILLED AGAIN.

I THINK I MIGHT BE INSANE.

BECAUSE DESPITE ALL OF THE SHIT I'VE BEEN THROUGH,

I STILL BELIEVE THERE IS BEAUTY IN SOMETHING NEW

I STILL BELIEVE SOMETHING MIRACULOUS CAN HAPPEN.

SOMEDAY, SOMEWAY.

YOU'RE THE ONE I KNOW I'M GOING TO LOSE.

YET, I CAN'T GET FAR AWAY FROM YOU.

YOU'RE PULLING ME IN LIKE NO DID.

IN FACT...

YOU'RE THE ONE THAT I CAN'T LOSE,

YOU'RE THE ONE THAT I CAN'T WIN.

KISS SOMEONE ELSE.

LOVE SOMEONE ELSE.

IF YOU HAVE TO, FORCE YOURSELF.

BUT PLEASE, DO'NT LET ME BE THE ONLY ONE.

MOVE ON.

IT MIGHT SUCK.

IT MIGHT HURT.

BUT WE CAN'T LOVE EACH OTHER ANYMORE.

WE HAVE TO CLOSE AND LOCK THIS DOOR.

EVEN IF I END UP LYING, CRYING ON THE FLOOR.

EVEN IF YOU TEMPT ME TO THE CORE.

THIS IS OUR ONLY DANCE, OUR ONLY CHANCE.

SO TRY.

TRY TO LEAD A BLAMELESS LIFE EVERMORE.

FOR SOMETHING TO START,

SOMETHING HAS TO END.

A HELLO ENDS INEVITABLY WITH A GOODBYE.

SO YOU COULD SAY IT'S ALL A LIE.

NO BUTTERFLIES.

ONLY SILENT CRIES.

THE 'I LOVE YOU' FEELS BITTER,

LIKE A COLD HARD WINTER.

OUR FIRST KISS WAS THE GOOD PART.

BUT OUR LOVE WAS A DEAD-END.

MY HEART THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE.

BUT MY MIND WOKE HIM UP

WHEN YOU SHOT ME UP FOR FUN

I TRIED TO RUN

BUT MY HANDS WERE TIED BEHIND MY BACK

MY WORLD BEING UNDER ATTACK.

I HAVE TO FIGHT BACK,

SO WAIT UNTIL YOU REALIZE

THAT I'M WAY STRONGER THAN THAT.

THOUGHT YOU'D GET AWAY WITH MURDER,

BUT SEE I'M A FIGHTER.

YOU THINK YOU'RE STRONGER,

YET I'M WISER.

THIS MUST FEEL BITTER.

HAVEN'T YOU HEARD? I'M A HEARTBREAKER.

WITH MY BARE HANDS, YOUR HEART AND SOUL I SHATTER.

GLORY TO THE WINNER.

WE LIKE THE DARK

WE KNOW IT HURTS

IT'S BAD AND WE LOVE IT

THEN WHY CHANGE IT.

WE'RE NO GOOD FOR US

YET WE KEEP THIS UP

I'D CRASH MY LUNGS IF IT MEANS I'D STILL GET TO KISS YOU

I'D BURN MY BONES IF IT MEANS I COULD STILL HOLD YOU

I WOULD MAKE A DEAL WITH THE DEVIL FOR THE PAIN TO KEEP GOING

I'LL TURN THE WORLD UPSIDE DOWN TO FIND MY WAY TO YOU

I'LL BE A HURRICANE IF YOU NEED ME TO

I'LL BE THE WORLD'S SALVATION IF YOU WANT ME TO

I'LL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES FOR YOU TO KEEP HURTING ME

AND ME TO KEEP HURTING YOU

YOU SHOULD'VE TOLD ME,

YOU DIDN'T WANT ME.

YOU HAVE CRASHED DOWN ALL MY BELIEFS.

IT'S TIGHT IN MY CHEST,

IT'S HARD TO BREATHE.

THIS JEALOUSY IS BLINDING ME.

AIN'T IT CRAZY HOW MUCH YOU CHANGED ME?

HOW MUCH YOU DAMAGED ME?

AND LET ME TELL YOU,

AFTER ALL YOU'VE DONE,

I DESERVE SOME PEACE.

YOU OWE IT TO ME.

YOU'D NEVER HOLD ME,

SO YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME,

YOU NEVER WANTED ME.

I THOUGHT IT WAS ABOUT FAITH,

BUT IT'S JUST YOUR SILHOUETTE.

BOY, IT'S A DARK AND TWISTED FATE.

YOUR SMILE IS HARD TO TRACE,

EASY TO ERASE.

YOU NEVER CRAVE,

YOU'LL NEVER CHANGE.

I THOUGHT I HEARD THE ANGELS CALL MY NAME.

IT MOMENTARILY STOPPED THE SCREAMS INSIDE MY HEAD.

BUT IT DOES NOT LAST,

AND I CAN'T RUN FAST,

 I CANNOT CARRY ON,

I MIGHT JUST BE GONE.

AS I GOT NO ONE.

HAVEN'T YOU HEARD?

DEMONS DON'T FLY,

SO DO NOT EXPECT ME NOT TO FALL AS FOR YOU I TRY.

NO I CAN'T CARRY ON,

I'M ALWAYS WRONG.

MY SINS ARE LIEK CHAINS,

YOUR FAITH AS PURE AS YOUR WINGS,

LIFE AIN'T AS EASY AS IT SEEMS.

I'M ALL ALONE.

DON'T BE MAD AT ME,

I FIGHT BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHERE I BELONG,

BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE.

SO YOU FIGHT YOUR WAY.

YOU FIGHT YOUR WAY THROUGH THE DARKNESS,

THROUGH THE DAY.

YOU WISH YOU COULD RUN AWAY.

AND PRAY THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY.

YOU BEG FOR IT TO BE DIFFERENT

THAT THE UNIVERSE WOULD BE MORE CLEMENT

BUT IM GOING TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST WITH YOU,

LIFE IS JUST A CRUEL AND BLOODY WITCH HUNT.

IT'S FULL OF JUDGEMENT AND ABANDONMENT.

IT'S PAINFUL, NOT MERCIFUL

BUT IT'S BEAUTIFUL SO YOU TRY TO STAY FAITHFUL

MEANWHILE, THE WOMAN THAT GAVE YOU LIFE

WITNESSES IT LEAVE YOUR EYES A LITTLE BIT MORE EVERY DAY

AS SHE WATCHES YOUR SOUL SLIPS AWAY.

MAY THE ODDS BE WITH YOU

MAY YOUR WISHES ALL COME TRUE

THIS YEAR IS COMING TO AN END

SO MY FRIEND, USE THE HOLIDAYS TO MAKE AMENDS

LOVE AND SPREAD JOY

JUST ENJOY

GIVE AND DON'T WAIT IN RETURN

DANCE AND TURN

CELEBRATE THIS WITH THE ONES YOU CHERISH

SO CLOSE YOUR EYES, BLOW A CANDLE AND MAKE A WISH.

I ONLY SAW YOU ONCE

HELD YOU ONCE

YOUR EYES COULDN'T EVEN OPEN

YOUR FACE SWOLLEN

I'M WRITING THIS POEM

WHILE MY HEART IS STILL BROKEN

FOR A SISTER I NEVER KNEW

THIS DOES NOT STOP ME FROM LOVING YOU

SO AS YOU STAY FOREVER YOUNG

I CAN HEAR YOUR SONG THAT WAS LEFT UNSUNG

I HOPE YOU LAUGH AND SMILE

AND YOU RUN FOR MILES AND MILES

THIRTEEN YEARS AGO WAS YOUR BIRTH

AND DESPITE THE PAIN, YOU BLESSED US.

DARLING, I KNOW YOU ONLY CRY WHEN YOU'RE ALONE

OH YES I KNOW, HOW IT FEELS TO LIE ON YOUR OWN

YOU COVER ALL OF IT WITH LAUGHS AND HOLD IT ALL DOWN

YOUR MEMORY DRIFTS AWAY, AS YOUR WILL TO LIVE ON.

YOU CAN'T CARRY ON,

WHAT'S THE POINT ANYWAY,

WHEN YOU'RE ALREADY GONE?